D.I.P. Schedule

I should be asleep

I should be sleeping but I have a headache after spending some time on Myspace. I have not been on MySpace for a long time. It's a horrible site and very addictive. I'm going to start blogging on there also. Anyway, I am very sick but want to go to work tomorrow because we are doing the last class for NYRTVS for the year and I want to be there. I hope snot doesn't come out my nose while I'm working, there will be cameras everywhere.

It's been taking long for the items I bought to come because of the weather, but tonight I recieved the vintage dress I bought. It doesn't seem as much vintage as handmade. Whatever, it's short a cute. If I do something for New Years, I'm going to wear it with thick black stockings and cute heels. I want to go party for the New Years, so I have to find out what events are happening for the New Years this year a go. I am not a party girl and prefer to stay home, but for resolution 2009...I'm going to be more social, less lazy and get out.

My New Year's resolution is to get a good paying steady job within the industry. If I have to show up to offices, I will. I would love to owrk for MTV or BET. Even better would love if NYRTVS gets picked up for beginning of 2009. It would be so fun to work on a reality TV show. Now I will go to bed. Today was a horrible day because I'm sick.

A trip down memorylane

As I was cleaning the room I am staying in, I found some things from my past including some essay I wrote in High School. English class was my favorite subject and I was very good at writing essay. I was used to getting 90+ and teachers telling other teachers about me. I remember a teacher did not like me and tried to turn another teacher against me...he refused and defended me in front of the whole class.

I also remembered once in class he read a poem I wrote about the Holocaust and I remember sitting in class nodding and saying "Great Poem!"...he looked at me surprised and said "Don't you remember? You wrote that!". I wrote the poem my sophmore year and forgot senior year. I don't know how he got a hold of it because my teacher at that time left the school to become a Professor and I forgot all about the poem. It was very graphic and vivid. I wish I still had that poem. Any way, I thought I would share one or two snippet from papers I wrote in H.S.

My sophmore year we read the book "Catcher in The Rye". I decided to rewrite three movie scenes from the book...a bit like, what if this had happened instead or what we would have liked to happen in the book instead. My teacher invited the Principal to come sit in on the class as my group was performing my scenes. My teacher loved it. She use to always brag about me.

Here is a scene where Holden and Sunny (prostitute) are talking. If you need to go back in the book to find that scene...I'll wait.

Holden: Who is it?

Sunny: It's me, the girl that Maurice told you about.

Holden: Come in, the door's open.

Sunny: What's your name?

Holden: Holden Caulfield.

Sunny: Why, that's a nice name for a fellow like you.

Holden: Thank You.

Sunny: How old are you?

Holden: Old enough.

Sunny: Old enough for what?

Holden: Old enough for you to be here.

Sunny: What's a guy like you doing here with a girl like me?

Holden: Why are you asking me all these questions for? What do you think I'm paying you for?

Sunny: To have sex with you, I guess.

Holden: Well then, let's get on with it.

Sunny: Don't you want to talk first?

Holden: What are you writing a book about me, if you want somebody to talk to, than go to a psychiatrist.

Sunny: What do you mean go to a psychiatrist?

Holden: Listen, it's either you put out or get out!

Sunny: I guess I'll get out. You owe me $25.

Holden: What! No way, you're getting nothing from me.

Sunny: I'm calling Maurice.

Holden: Go ahead.

Maurice: What is going on here?

Sunny: This guy is too cheap to pay for the night.

Maurice: Oh, I see. (walks up to holden) What's the story here?

Holden: Look man, if I needed somebody to talk to, than I would have called the psychic hot line. All she wanted to do was talk.

Maurice: (slaps Sunny) You're fired. The only business you give me is bad business.

Sunny: But I can explain Maurice.

Maurice: I don't care anymore. Just go away for once and don't come back.

Sunny runs out crying, meanwhile Maurice gets Holden another girl.

NOTE: So that was the flip side. I was very upset that Holden punked out when he was time to be a man. Not saying sleeping with a prostitute was becoming a man. It was just that he had an excuse for everything. He never did anything, but talk about doing things. I found that about Holden to be annoying. He was all talk and no action. A big phony, but I still loved him at the time. As I got older and read the book again this year, I didn't really care too much for Holden. I've out grown him and his kind of personality.

Next will be an essay from..."The Scarlet Letter", another favorite of mine. I can go on and on about that book...well n the past. Now I couldn't care less.

Teacher's a Hater

It's snowing outside but I had a great time tonight. I got back from the class some time ago. Let me start off saying that I had fun hanging out with all of the girls. There were five of us in all. We met and tried to jiggle our butts, because that was the premise of the class. Here is my theory. I don't think everyone can jiggle their butt. Especially if you have a tight, firm butt. The teacher said that girls with flat butts can jiggle their butts. Just because your butt is flat does not mean it's not flabby or full of fat. So our theory is that the reason we couldn't jiggle our butts is because we are fit with nice, round, tight butts.

That teacher was such a hater!!! She had the nastiest attitude. It's not our fault that we all have better bodies than her. All she had to do was stand straight and her butt would jiggle. I don't know, she had an attitude and all my friends notice. I'm going to find us a studio where the teachers are nice and the space is spacious. I asked if I get a referral discount next time I come because I brought four people. Do you know how hard it is to convince one person to go with you to a dance class, let alone a exotic dance class? The owner told me No discounts. I was like, Hell nah!!! I am not going back. They are so mean.

After the class I decided to play on the stripper pole in the room and the teacher told me off. The class was over but she was like you have to come back and pay to play on the pole. Hello!!! I made you $125 in one night and you can't be nice to me? We are so not coming back. You can go to my youtube page and see me playing on the stripper pole. I think she was just hating because I looked so good on the pole and she wish she had my body. She seriously needed to do some reps. I'm not going to lie, she could move sexy. I'm jealous, but she had the nasiest attitude and I sure as hell do not plan on learning from her. She didn't even take time to teach us each move. She even had the nerve to laugh at us. I'm hurt! and tramatize. What teacher laughs at their students when they are trying. It's not my fault my butt is tight, firm and refuses to shake.

YOUTUBE

ViVa Magazine articles

Here are the articles from the Dubai entertainment magazine about New York Reality TV School.

Diary update

So I didn't win the diary I wanted but I have my eye on another diary. It's the same diary but in a different color. I don't want to post it encase someone bids on it. Not saying there are people interested on PNN. The diary went up $10 more than I was willing to spend. Hopefully I get this one which is a nice color. A gold diary would be nice but I like the lock and key too. If I win this one, I will post a picture of it. I thought I would have a problem finding juicy material to put in my diary...but lo and behold, my sister emailed me. I am going to print her email and my response and put it in the diary. This diary is going to be juicier than I thought it would be. If I become succesful, it will made a great lifetime movie or something. I'm going to make sure the emails are the first pages. They will shape the Diary and my family life and lack thereof...it is what has shaped me to be the female I am. I thank God I am not mess up more than I am. I'm a very strong individual. Very Strong.

When and if I ever get married, I am going to make sure my husband and children are well taken care of. I will teach my children to be independent and bold. Something I've lacked most of my life. Most of all...I will teach my family what love is by actions and not words. People talk about love all the time, but do not even know what Love entiles. I won't settle for a guy who speaks of love and has a tongue made of honey. I am going to settle for a guy who shows love without having to say it everyday. I will know by how he treats me. I don't even believe anyone is perfect nor do I want a perfect guy. I'm wary of perfect people who use false flattery while thinking the opposite. I am going to go deeper in my diary about my future, from family to the man I want in my life. I'm in no rush. Everyone is always rushing and passing me by. As I get older and wiser, I realize that the best love comes at an older age. When you know yourself and your partner. I'm in no rush to fall in love or be loved. I know when it finally happens, I will be ready and the person will also. The more you rush, the more you settle and form false hope.

Change of eating habit

I've really gotten into cooking this year. I'm not a soup girl but after working for Columbia University in 2006, I can handle a nice little soup once in a while. I loved Pinnacle's seafood soup. I decided to make my own and it came out really good. My cooking is improving. I can see myself opening a little cafe with light foods in the future. I made a tomatoe seafood medley soup. There are some seafood in there that I wouldn't eat if I thought about what they were, but it taste so good.

The pot is a bit old...but it still does its job.

RESULT:

I also am trying to change my eating habits. I plan on taking a exotic dance class on tuesday to become more fit but also am trying to eat healthier. I don't believe a female over 20 should weigh less than 120 pounds, but I also want to make sure I am conscious of how I eat. I have been making protein shakes to try to sub as meal. Also lessen my proportions. I have a great body, but I don't want to take anything for granted and want to tone up without going to the gym. I am not a gym person, but will find other ways to stay healthy. Maybe next year, I will finally start fencing. The shake is great and I love that I don't have to add sugar.

Fruit Protein Shake:

Glass of milk

Strawberries

Blueberries

Banana

Soy Protein powder

Bidding on a Diary

After looking on ebay for an hour or so I found an interesting Diary with lock and key. I hope I win it, I have a limit I plan on spending.

First Diary

I've never owned a Diary but started blogging in 2005 or 2006. I did some stuff before then but never long term. The reason why I've never owned a Diary is because I have a complicated life and emotions. I don't know how to put it on paper. I decided today, to get a diary and try to document my life for 2009. I've tried in the past and had a problem being honest on paper. I am going to try starting next month to be open. I want it to be a Diary with lock and key, that no one can read. You would think that would be easy, but not really. I blog a lot but there are parts of my emotions or life I have not fully tapped into. Maybe I can do so with this Diary. It's my new year's resoluation. I need to find a great looking dairy that makes me want to write in it. If anyone knows any diaries, please let me know. I want one with an interesting cover, whether simple or over the top. I saw this picture of a Diary and I liked it.

Showing my cards

I am getting ready to make a cake next week or when all of my tools come in. Here are some of the tools I will be using for my creation. 

I got 8 Wilton mist color sprays, 8 Wilton color writing gels, 200 Betty Crocker cake decorating pieces and 74 cookie cutters for my cake decorating. I am going to try and make the cake grand. I will post pictures of the cake when it's finish. I might even include pictures of when I am creating it. I not only want the cake look good, I also want it to taste good. So I am creating an angel cake with pineapple and cream or custard filling. That is all I am giving away. I might also buy some stencils.

I'm freaking tired

I just got home some time ago and I have to leave again at 4:30am for Good Morning America. I want to cry. If I don't get sleep, I become a big baby. I don't know how I am going to function into the morning. I could never become a party animal or jet setter. I need my sleep. I'm sorry but it's not going to be a good morning. My cat is jumping all over the furniture. I wish I had her energy right now. Aren't cats suppose to be laid back? I was given a dog, in cat form. She keeps me active, but not tonight. I'm tired.

 On another note, I'm getting some girls together next week for a girls night out. We are going to an erotic dance class. It should be fun. I will blog about how it turns out. There should be about four to five of us all together.

Supporting my projects

Today we are having another class at NY Reality TV school, I am so excited. The producer is pitching the show in New York and California. If the show gets picked in LA, I have no problem moving to LA to work, if I get offered a job. I don't like LA, but it's a business state for entertainment and I have to get over myself and what I feel is comfortable for me. In 2009, I am no longer going to do what I feel is comfortable and am going to try my best to become uncomfortable and take chances. I want to succeed next year, so 2009 is about being uncomfortable and taking tisks.

Tomorrow, I'm going to the "Morning Show", I know there are lot of them. I think it's "Good Morning America" to help support "Meet the Famous". We are going to have signs, T-shirts and try to get on air. It should be fun. I'm going to take my super 8 camera and proceed to film it. I will have to dress warm because I'm going to be standing in the cold for a long time. I might also take my camera, to take pictures.

P.S. I finally got my mohawk...but I don't know how to style it to stand up. Maybe my hair it too long and I should cut the middle. It's okay. I didn't really want a style, just the sides shaven low. When I get a chance, I will take model pictures with my new hair style. I hope it's noticeable.

Hopefully my first tattoo

I've been trying to create a tattoo that I am comfortable with for two yeras. I finally realize that it's not that serious and I should just have fun with it. If I don't like it, I can get it covered up with a bigger tattoo or ink out. So here is what my first tattoo might look like. I want to get it maybe by next month. I will get it on my back.

multiple tattoos

I plan on getting more than one tattoo. My biggest will be the flowers going from under my right breast down to my pelvic. I also am getting stars. As I was searching for tattoos...I saw some nice unicorn tattoos.

In third grade after watching "Legends" I became obsessed with unicorns. I used to be a good artist in third grade and my teacher would hang my drawings on the wall. Our grade had to write stories and poetry. I wrote a short story about a prince with a Unicorn carrying off his love away (I think I including a picture). I probably stole it from the movie, but whatever. It was really cheesy. At the time a boy that I liked, who kept on rejecting me came up to me and proceeded to read my story out loud. I was so embarrassed, I no longer liked him after that incident. I was hurt because I knew he liked me back, but he didn't do anything about it. After third grade, I didn't really deal much with guys until a couple of years ago. I got so used to guys chasing me and my rejecting them, I almost forgot what rejection was like.

Anyway...back to my tattoos. I want to get a small tattoo of a male and female unicorn locked in a passionate embrace or sexual struggle. I don't know which tattoo to get first but it might be the stars or unicorns because they are the smallest and easiest to do. The female unicorn will be black, the male will either be white or blue...depending on which color looks great against my skin.

Static shocked my kitty

The craziest thing happened tonight. I saw my cat get shocked and she jumped up 2-3 feet in the air as if someone picked her up and hovered. My heart jumped in my throat because you only see that stuff with special effects. It was static shock, but I've never seen static shock pick anyone or thing up in the air. Maybe that is what is used in magic. She was walking into my room and I heard a crackle and saw her being lifted in the air. She was so surprised and scared, she gave a yelp and flew out of the room still in the air. I was in shock and couldn't believe what I saw because I am reading "Wicked" and don't want to believe in the supernatural. After getting over the shock of what I saw, I couldn't help but laugh. I am in shock, my cat is too. It took her a while to venture back into the room. She did a lot of looking around for whatever shocked and pick her up. I will always remember tonight. Crazy, crazy!!! I wish I could've captured it on tape. I've never seen a cat float before to night. For some reason I think she thought I lifted her up from where I was sitting across the room. She gave me an accusing look, so I tried not to laugh to her face. LOL

Lazy tattoo rough draft

I've been blogging about getting flower tattoos since 2007. I think I'm going to finally do it for the beginning of the new year. I am going to get a big winding tattoo of seven different flowers from under the back of my breast to my right pelvic. The flowers I am going to tattoo are...

Camellia

Lily

Peony

Poppy

Kerria

Cherry Blossoms

Lotus(maybe)-it's hard to find beautiful lotus tattoos. I might do roses instead.

I also want stars, but I don't know where on my body yet. Maybe wrist, if I were bold, my face...but I'm not. I was too lazy to do a good photoshop draft of my future tattoo but maybe the sloppy draft will give me inspiration. The artist will probably clean up whatever Idea I have.